||[Jan. 6th, 2005|10:28 am]
|||||Muse - Absolution||]|
It feels like I'm not excited about much anymore. Like i used to have to force myself to sleep, or at least put up the pretenses of sleep on christmas eve, and last time, I barely registered that it WAS christmas eve. I'm glad that there are good people in my life, and i don't think that I say that enough... maybe ever. I enjoy cooking. The prospect of moving back to Portland makes me inexplicably happy. I never befriended anyone very very seriously, maybe a little afraid of rejection? but i liked that town more than i knew when i lived there.
Man, do I enjoy Muse. And Keane.
We have to find someone to move in with in Portland. Our criteria is rather strict, though, and that may be a problem... We want a clean female, who isn't mean, possibly two females, and it would be preferred that they be of the gay persuasion. I don't care if they are vegetarians or not, everyone is entitled to their own opinions, and it would be dumb to be THAT picky. We'd be just like Grace and Russell then. Yes, I understand that it is most definitely easier to get along with someone who shares the same opinions with you. But honestly, if you can't be friends, or live with someone who has different feelings on things then you're not going to be very successful in a venture of finding a roommate or even friend. Isn't that self-love a little? If you'll only befriend someone who thinks, acts and is like yourself?
Ah. I wish i didn't have to eat. It's so base and guttural, but then, I need something like that in my existence. I wish that I could eat air. That'd be neat.
Manda complimented me yesterday, and it made me all glowy.... happy. We've (Manda and i) been jogging lately and it makes me feel a bit better. It's nice, knowing that you're doing something good. Drinking of the water makes me feel the same way, too.
Well, I have to be going. This was nice.